Janice's cat..

Sooo Janice has this cat, Bobs daughter dropped it off last night, and she put it in a box, and opened the garage, the thing takes off running... If I had to live with Janice I would too lol...

Well tonight Katie and I are outside and it comes up to us and we tried to catch it and had no such luck. Poor kitty I feel bad that its outside in the horrible weather... It looks like my little mittens did minus the extra paws, Janice was going to name it chai latte or something poor poor kitty.
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The Farm..

So yesterday we went up to the farm to visit with my dad and aunt anna. While we were at The Stables Restaurant, we heard the emergency beeps over the radio, and of course me and my father pull out our cell phones to see what it was bc you couldn't make out what the radio was saying. Turns out a huge ominous storm is approaching.. one that could.. and would produce two inch hail, damaging winds and torrential down pours. Soooo.. we go back to the barn.. and of course.. two seconds after walking in, boom! the skies open up.. and god was it loud.. so.. yeah.. heres some pictures... lol

Old Lyme trip again..

Not much to say about it.. just sharing pictures.. did the usual Niantic, Book Barn and Skippers.. Met a cool artist my father knows, Frank i think his name was.. In Branford.. where it rained a lot and people weren't very friendly, and the shuttle bus never came. I ate my lox bagels, Magic Brownies.. bc coffees is awesome.. and my lobster roll.. it was a pretty good trip overall..

The Drama lately...

Sooooooo... after having been a friend to heather, feeding here when she was hungry, listening to her annoying stories over and over and over... and her insistent chatter about Carroll's penis... like let it go already... her melodrama... her lies and head games all of it i put up with. She in the beginning was only supposed to pretend to date Eric, she wanted to get Carroll of her back, why she didn't just tell him she wasn't interested is beyond me, but pretending turned into the real thing somehow. and what ensued was her making a mockery of my very close friend. She used him in every way imaginable, even to push her own agenda with the rest of the group, believe it or not she went as far as to insinuate he raped her. Then if this is not enough, she brings her ex boyfriend Eric from Tennessee back home and has him move in with her and lies continuously about that.. so when i do confront her.. she decides to make my life hell at work and tell my boss lies about me.. she is unholy stupid. I'm really not sure why i bother to have friends any more.

The new girl...

So I feel really bad for the new girl at work... she was there two days before she started hating janice, actually, the first time i saw her the first words out of her mouth were "help me" having Hitler up your butt for hours on end.. is not something i would ever want. In-fact, i don't think i could handle that at all... well anyways, i think that she is gonna try to stay at the Olyphant house, i dunno. She is a really funny girl, i think she said her husband was blind? i cant remember.. but its great, she hates janice even before i open my mouth. At least i dont have to deal with her alone any more..

It was the best of time... And now its the worst of times...

Sometimes I don't understand myself, my life, or which paths I am meant to walk in life, I try to live it by doing what is fair and right, but fair and right are not always easy. And sometimes they hurt others, and myself, sometimes its saying good bye to things that up until that point you never knew existed, feelings that were so strong... You're left in awe ... and now, left to wonder... What was I thinking and where the hell did I go wrong? Can this really be it? Is this really what it's come to?!? I guess we never truly know if the decisions we make are the right ones, and some decisions that seemed right will haunt you forever, or at least me... I keep catching glimpses of "I didn't expect this" or "I don't want this" and the endless waterfall starts, not for myself, but for whom I have hurt with my words, actions, and decisions. I feel like I have made the worst decision I could have. I feel empty, I feel wrong, my life is full of these regrets, and I am left to wonder if for once in my life, will I ever do something right? Will I ever be able to make someone truly happy? Is happiness even a real thing that we strive for? Or it is imaginary like the Easter bunny or Santa Clause? I just wish I had a crystal ball.... Or a time machine, so I could take it all back, or I could know what I really did. Nothing is right in my world. Nothing.

Spring has finally sprung in moscow! yay

Peas coming up in the garden..

Dill in the Herb Garden

Lilacs!!

and more lilacs on the other side of the house...